First of all a confession: I have a love-hate relationship with Contemporary Christian Music. That might sound like a strange way to begin a post in appreciation of the ministry which such music has excerised in my life: but it’s the truth. My problem is that I have an intolerance of (bordering on an allergy to?) many of the accepted norms of modern worship. Whether it be what John MacArthur describes as the 7-11 rule (seven lines sung eleven times), the thoroughly soul wrenching experience of watching a group of people having private epiphanies at the front of a church service only to leave before the sermon begins, the incessant proclamation of the first line of every verse of a song even though it is displayed clearly on the Powerpoint screen…I could go on, but it wouldn’t be edifying! Suffice to say at times I feel a little bit of malaise with regard to modern Christian music.
Having said that though, it is malaise not dislike, uneasiness not dismissal, reservations and not rejection. I believe that modern Christian music has been a thoroughly positive feature in my spiritual life, and a means by which God has directed, challenged, inspired, rebuked and encouraged me. I don’t have much time for brow beating modern praise into submission while embracing an anaemic, lifeless, formal clinging to the past and to posterity. I just feel that care and discernment are needed.
For me Fernando Ortega, whose song ‘Lord of Eternity’ begins our playlist, is one of the finest ambassadors for modern Christian music. Others have eloquently posted their feelings about this elsewhere, and I count myself among the number of those who treasure this man’s musical output. Ortega’s songs are profoundly simple, melodically rich, and sung with a vocal clarity that is hard to find in any musical genre – sacred or secular. We have over 60 of his songs on our iPod and I can’t think of one that hasn’t touched and blessed me. His albums provide a tremendous mixture of traditional hymns and modern pieces.
“Lord of Eternity” is a great example of classic Ortega. Here are the lyrics:
Blessed is the man
Who walks in Your favor
Who loves all Your words
And hides them like treasure
In the darkest place Of his desperate heart,
They are a light A strong, sure light.
Sometimes I call out Your name
But I cannot find You.
I look for Your face,
But You are not there.
By my sorrows, Lord, Lift me to You, Lift me to Your side.
CHORUS
Lord of Eternity,
Father of mercy,
Look on my fainting soul.
Keeper of all the stars,
Friend of the poorest heart
Touch me and make me whole.
If You are my defender,
Who is against me?
No one can trouble or harm me
If You are my strength.
All I ask, all I desire
Is to live in Your house all my days.
On our dark days in Peru (and we’ve had a few!) these words have refreshed my soul so much. They are steeped in pathos, reflective of reality, and single-hearted in their adherence to God amidst His more confusing providences in our lives. The thought of God ‘keeping all the stars’ and yet coming to our troubled souls encapsulates His sweeping grandeur and sweet grace. Expressions of difficulty are honest ‘I can’t find you’, but bordered by a heartfelt plea for healing and peace. On many mornings on my way to language school these words run through my mind, driving me to seek God afresh for the new challenges of a new day.